today i did nothing . i'm always complaining about wanting more free time for myself but i was so bored all day today. got a dq blizzard; reese's flavour. ate it too quickly, feeling sick. what's your favourite blizzard? i love the strawberry cheesecake one but it's seasonal :(

i might watch a movie. i miss being a """"cinephile"""" and obsessively logging everything on letterboxd. i remember during march 2020 i watched 32 (give or take a few) movies like what tehf uck......... gonna take a few gummies and watch Pearl. maybe idk it might freak me out too much.

at a point in my depression journey (for lack of a better term...) where anhedonia consumes my life. nothing is interesting, nothing is captivating, nothing is shiny or bright but everything just is. earnest post but i want to talk about it. or i guess display it for others to see. people online are so intense about "attention-seeking" but is that not what social media is for.... i think there is a twisted comfort in putting your private thoughts on the internet for strangers to read. you know what i mean? or maybe i'm just an emotional exhibitionist