i am doing bad. gained a lot of weight in the name of recovery but now i feel awful in my own skin. AND speaking of skin, i am a victim of adult acne. i have gone to the derm, i have gone on bc, i have used antibiotics, and i have used topicals, to no avail. it has been a very rough 6 months. lot of rapid change in my life and i think i'm finally adjusting. finally seeing the light of the depression tunnel again, so i am leveraging what i can. i miss being good and perfect and present and awake and careless. but now i feel like I'm 16 again. need to spend some money, so i think i'm going to buy some new face creme and mouthwash(same ones i always use), and maybe some essential oils (grapefruit perhaps.... i like a citrus scent), and maybe some nail polish.

i love you goodnight